It's not the first time I've realise that I have pent up anger but today, I have come into terms with it.
I build walls. To keep out people who may hurt me, even more so when they do it unintentionally. I keep it to myself cos I know if I point out I'm hurt, they'll think "here she goes being oversensitive (again)". I hate appearing affected/weak so I brush it off and go on pretending like everything's fine and dandy.
So, in a nutshell, I'm a walking emotional time bomb waiting to explode. Apparently, today's the lucky day.
"Insults can leave you shattered and are not easily forgotten."
I could brush off words that people say and not give a shit but I can't when it comes to family. If everything is said but nothing changes I'm just putting myself up for further disappointment and more anger.
It is the fear of disappointment that's holding me back from tearing down these walls.
I shall resign to bed and give up on the world and myself.
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